aft getting my results few weeks back, i knew i had to make a choice. drop or continue. few hours ago, i was determined to drop. now, aft looking at my exam timetable, im back to where i began-drop or continue. tsk. maybe i really shudnt drop. ppl believe in me. shudnt i believe in myself too? i've come so far. isnt it too wasted jus to let go like that? alright. i guess i will continue ba.
quotes from ppl:
"sacrifice" -Ms Lo
"it's your choice, i will support you no matter wad you choose" -weizhou
" i think you can do it" - Sush
"u can one lor, u just need to study" - Elaine
"DONT DROP" - Letty
"we believe in you and we look forward in seeing you in NTU" -uncle Vincent
guys, believe it or not, things u all said sometimes do leave an impact on me, on my decisions made yea. i noe i shud be doing it all for myself but sometimes u guys give me the power to move on. so yea, maybe i shud not chicken out and choose the easy path.
STUDY HARD PEOPLE! IT'S 4 WEEKS TO PRELIMS! 14 WEEKS TO A LEVELS!! 16 WEEKS TO HELL LOTS OF FUN AND FREEDOM!!!=D
im looking forward to aft As. but first, i haf to conquer As. lol. luckily im someone who likes to save the best for last. AHAHA.
Thursday, July 17, 2008 ; 10:10 PM
RED CLIFF ROCKS! haha. it was damn nice la. guan yu came out like so damn cool. haha. they fought like real heroes. unlike other ppl who dun even dare to reveal their identity. but i noe who they r. bet they choose not to believe. but i really noe who they r. haha. dunno why ppl like to say it's not their fault when they started all these. it's kinda funny. i told all my frens, "the more i read, the more i laugh". seriously, all those tags r getting no way esp when ppl keep revolving ard the same basless pt and i haf to repeat wad i said over and over again. they really cant infer. and the thought of them keep pressing the refresh button makes me laugh. din noe my blog can bring such funny tags. even my frens laugh at the tags. haha.
; 1:02 AM
the war continues:
17 Jul 08, 00:23xuan>random passerby: u nv like me from the start. haha. so how do u noe me when everything u see in me are jus bad. hah.
17 Jul 08, 00:17xuan>random passerby: lol. im not crying. in case u dunno, im laughing now. coz oni 1person in my sec sch calls me miss yixuan. lol. well, i really enjoy my life la. esp. with this war going on. haha.
17 Jul 08, 00:13random passerby: and they know you for all the wrong reasons, enjoy that life of yours, and remember, dont try to be the laughing stock of us ever again, impression does matter to you so much, please dont cry.
17 Jul 08, 00:13xuan>random passerby: if tt's wad u think la. if u really noe me, u wouldnt be tagging all these things yea.
17 Jul 08, 00:13xuan>random passerby: eh? not defending myself. but lol. this is seriously getting no way. ahaha. and i guess i noe who u r. lol
17 Jul 08, 00:12random passerby: thanks for clearly showing your UNDERSTANDING of friends, you see, your attempt to find out who i am will be futile, but everyone knows, classmates, acquaintance or friends, they all know you.
17 Jul 08, 00:11xuan>random passerby: lol. whoever u r, i dun really care. so u telling me i treat u like a fren? ahaha. go cj means wanna start a new life? lol
17 Jul 08, 00:11random passerby: humji is one thing, a fool is another, i really like to say so much truths about you, especially in secondary school, OH THAT GREAT YIXUAN. well done, whats the hurry to defend yourself anyway?guilty?
17 Jul 08, 00:09xuan>random passerby: lol. yea, really wonder if i regard them as frens first. in case u dunno, there's a diff btwn classmates, acquaintance and frens
17 Jul 08, 00:09random passerby: smile yixuan smile, maybe one day when u know who i am, you will only realise your "rebutts" acts only against yourself. you know yourself better, starting life anew in cjc? not successful.
17 Jul 08, 00:08xuan>random passerby: zZz. wad did i do u tell me la? wad did i do tt ny haf to tag such a thing? zZz. u r another humji 1 who dun dare to leave ur name behind.-.-
17 Jul 08, 00:07random passerby: your friends? your friends? u say your friends? indeed they are worthy friends. so worthy to provide everything i need to know how u are like. this conversation is getting really amusing.
17 Jul 08, 00:07xuan>random passerby: lol, den dun ur actions amplifies infront of ppl who doesnt like u. pls la. once u dun like tt person, u wont see anything gd in tt person lor. lol. pot calling kettle black. bet u dunno me personally
17 Jul 08, 00:06random passerby: fair enough, u just proven yourself what everyone is talking abt u, if u ever felt a change in what is around you, please UNDERSTAND just one thing, everything is brought only because of YOUR actions.
17 Jul 08, 00:05xuan>random passerby: eh. if tt's wad u think. u probably ask the wrong one. ahaha. i dun see a nid to change. coz i think my frens who noe me well noe im like tt and they r able to accept me for who i m.
17 Jul 08, 00:05random passerby: your every actions, amplifies itself significantly in front of the eys of those who detest u since that very long ago. like now, u still think youre OH SO GREAT? lol
17 Jul 08, 00:03random passerby: and u din change a bit? thats why, ure still that horrible person, and dont presume i dont know u, maybe u should be really careful, especially how u carry your life.
17 Jul 08, 00:02random passerby: sorry but, news from your secondary school aint so pleasing to my ears, i mean, its a fact, there are things u cannot change.
17 Jul 08, 00:00xuan>random passerby: em, i will be nice to ppl who dun offend me yea. and i din change a bit since the last time ur frens tell u abt me. jus noe tt im not the one who started all these
16 Jul 08, 23:59xuan>random passerby: seriously, u dunno me u cant comment anything. lol. i did nth wrong from the start. u guys start all these yea. lol. if u were to look properly, i din not start the tagging-spam
16 Jul 08, 23:57random passerby: so i think that is where this problem is escalating to. i believe u can be a nice person through some people whom i know knows you, so try change for a change, hope it works. bye
16 Jul 08, 23:56random passerby: just for your info, u dont have to know who i am or what i do. you just have to understand, i have nothing against you, but it seems that everyone i know, doesnt seem to like u just one bit.
16 Jul 08, 23:54random passerby: people dont like u and they jus spend their time to hammer u down with such statements, isnt that obvious enough? maybe you should try to look into your character miss yixuan, then maybe it will stop.
16 Jul 08, 23:53random passerby: hello happen to come to your blog via some friends, anyway i read all those nonsense and i realise one thing, it doesnt matter abt judo or cj or ny or rjc, u have to UNDERSTAND, its about YOU.
16 Jul 08, 23:46xuan>unanimous: come on la, i was like in a joking tone. lol. but i dunno why ny can blog abt us and sji but we cant even mention the word ny in our own blogs
16 Jul 08, 23:46xuan>unanimous: eh. but u also muz understand tt i din start all these? and when i sae i curse ny do u really think i will like really pray and curse? zZz. u guys take things too seriously la.
16 Jul 08, 23:43UNANIMOUS: k thats great and all but i feel offended too u noe noeing i have lots of frens from ny...aniwaes yathats all i have to say and once again sorry for offnding any1
16 Jul 08, 23:35xuan>unanimous: i mean we even SUPPORTED ur school.
16 Jul 08, 23:34xuan>unanimous: lol. i noe u wont and it's not a threat. it's jus tt i happened to noe the coach. yup. u not oni offended me but the whole cj. i mean we din offend u guys rite.
16 Jul 08, 23:32UNANIMOUS: erm ya do what u wan...sry if i offended u but i m not gonna be a coward and beg u not to
16 Jul 08, 23:31xuan>unanimous: lol. seriously, why u guys jus dun wanna admit? well, i will noe once i let tan yi noe wad u blog. or maybe i shud write a letter to ur principal.
16 Jul 08, 23:30UNANIMOUS: Hey Hey I may be from RJ but hu the hell told u from judo...i m just proud of my skl winning?
16 Jul 08, 23:25xuan>bel: yes, my dear. tt's the spirit yea=) we wont burst a vein for other ppl=)
16 Jul 08, 23:20bel: haha yeap. we'll stay strong as cj judo club can le
16 Jul 08, 23:19xuan>bel: cheer for them coz they deserved to win ma. it's ok la. next time jus be neutral lor. aft the matches were exciting rite? their comments dun really affect me. i noe im not and u r not can le=)
16 Jul 08, 23:15bel: what for did i cheer for them man. don't worry la xuan, hell with those idiots.
16 Jul 08, 23:13xuan>bel: yea. zZz. but nvm la. they deserve to win. but i guess if this gets ard in rj, their coach and their teacher will be super mad too. lol. can u imagine wad tan yi will do? haha.
16 Jul 08, 23:11bel: xuan. i can't believ i was happy for them when they won too. i totally feel like an idiot now.
16 Jul 08, 23:07xuan>ny: since u not from judo, still dare to proclaim tt it's new and inexperienced when there's ppl das to ur sch thru judo? lol
16 Jul 08, 23:05xuan>unanimous: eh. sorry but cj dun seems to hold tt title anymore. it's more like rj/ hc. heard from my rj'hc frens tt most ppl there r rich to afford abortion and some where caught making out in school
16 Jul 08, 23:03xuan: to ny, sorry, but u made urself sounds like u noe everything abt judo, abt sportsmanship. lol. seriously, dun try to hide.
16 Jul 08, 23:02xuan: unanimous? guess i see wrongly in u guys. really wonder wad happens if i tell tan yi abt wad u said. i respect rj coz u guys really played damn well, should have seen how we cheered for u guys alrite
16 Jul 08, 23:00xuan: oh btw, i did not start the "tagging-spam" thing, it's jus my frens defending for me coz they noe me well
16 Jul 08, 22:56From NY: yixuan, cant you read? or is ur understanding so poor? i didnt say i'm from judo.. NY is my sch, and 'we won' is referring to our sch winning. wonder how u read things
16 Jul 08, 22:48UNANIMOUS: I m not surprised CJ cant win NY since you guys spend most of your time making BABIES.......i m in RJC by the ways,,,JUDO CHAMPIONS!!!!!!!!!!
16 Jul 08, 22:46xuan: i think it's so useful putting down every1's tags on the post. den everyone can read and find out all these mistakes?
16 Jul 08, 22:45xuan: haha. eh. "from ny"? first u said u won den u said u not in judo, den wad did u win? why contradict urself.
lol. i din noe in 1 nite can get so many tags. haha. oh, btw, to random passerby, if u were to read u type, u noe u have let ur identity out. and eh, seriously if ppl really dun like, they can really choose not to read u noe. i din take a gun and force them to read. neither did i force them to like me. jus like i din force u to like me. coz i noe from the start u alrdy dun like me. and i dun see a nid to suck up to u to make u like me alittle. so yea i guess tt's why u receive attitude from me. and their "hammering" dun work at all. haha. and still dare to say u got nth against me. ahaha. sorry, but the more i read wad u typed, the more i feel like laughing. contradictions. haha. and like u said i can be nice to some ppl. it really depends on who. and i did not do anything in front of ny ppl yea. wonder wad actions i have made that amplify yea. haha. to unanimous, i think the whole cj is offended. n cjcians who cheered for u all during the finals will feel v upset knowing that this is how treat us yea. ANYWAYS, i think this war is like getting bigger? ahaha. so freaking cool. everyone is jumping up and down coz they r thinking of ways to burst my veins? haha. but seriously, if my actions irritate u den i suggest u dun look la. den eh. i dun mind if u guys wanna talk this out face to face la. coz im not afraid. i did nth wrong.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008 ; 10:20 PM
this is damn cool la. there's a war going on on my tag board? lol. and it's like everyday got more den 10tags. hmmm. maybe i shud like cut and paste and post them. jus to update u guys what u may miss since u may not get a chance to read before they become "older messages"? i seriously think i will do that. so that u guys out there can read and read till u all have smth to rebut. coz i think some ppl r running out of stuff to say. basically, they say things with no evidence. poor them. bet they fail their compo damn badly. where's the explanation and examples? anyways, u guys think by doing this i will burst a vein and end up in the hospital? sorry but sad to say, this doesnt affect me. yes i may be angry when i first read it. but come to think of it, i will be classified in the same level as u guys if i let my angst get the better of me. so seriously, i noe i fought hard. i noe i did my best. and i noe wadever u guys said r like empty talks. so yea, i think im watching a show. i may rebut but jus in case u guys cant infer, it contains no anger but a calm and rational tone.
sorry but u all haf to read from bottom up. here's the start of the war:
16 Jul 08, 22:18xuan>stranger: and reason for ppl not to like me? is coz i dun like them jus like how much i dun like u.
16 Jul 08, 22:10xuan>stranger: whoever u r, i DARE TO SAY MY ATTITUDE IS DEFINITELY BETTER DEN URS! u shud totally go reflect yea. even if my attitude sucks in ur opinion, the reason will be coz it's to u
16 Jul 08, 22:09CJ: You're avoiding the issue. You don't even know her and you say she sucks. If you want people to take you seriously, stop being so emotional and stop with baseless personal attacks.
16 Jul 08, 22:08xuan: seriously la. dun be a coward. wanna tag den leave ur name behind. dun be humji.
16 Jul 08, 22:07xuan: REALLY WONDER WHO STARTED WITH THIS BLOG FIGHT LOR. whoever started is the real one tt doesnt have manners lor.
16 Jul 08, 22:06xuan: SERIOUSLY i din call u guys a sore loser k! u guys r calling us a sore loser? and i din not offend u guys. i din tag ur blog rite. stupid. when did i get into PERSONAL ATTACK?
16 Jul 08, 21:19cj senior: HAHA JK YX GUESS WHO??
16 Jul 08, 21:18cj senior: cj cant EVEN win NY
16 Jul 08, 21:17cj senior: cj judo sucks!!!!!!!!!
16 Jul 08, 21:02cj junior: i saying my senior
16 Jul 08, 20:58cj junior: stop being an *******. pls change ur attitude.
16 Jul 08, 20:38From NY: Sorry man, I'm not from judo, and i'm not a sportsman. So don't talk about sportsmanship with me. She shldnt make such comments in the first place.
16 Jul 08, 19:4333>From NY: And probably it's time for you all to learn.
16 Jul 08, 19:4233>From NY: Think it through, would sporstmen start something like that, get into personal attacks? Where's your sportsmanship? Maybe NY only trained you into a Judoka, not a professional Judoka.
16 Jul 08, 19:4133>From NY: When you started this entire tagging-spam just to say someone is a sore loser, i think it's more than enough being said.
16 Jul 08, 19:10neutral party: her. like she has to me. have a good day
16 Jul 08, 19:10neutral party: so there you go. even though i dont like yixuan, i felt the need to defend her seeing as i think its unfair for you ppl to judge her, unless shes actually done something to you that makes you disllike
16 Jul 08, 19:07neutral party: i quote: stuoud NY. i curse you, lol. i think the lol at the end kinda signifies that shes joking.
16 Jul 08, 19:06neutral party: hello i am NOT from cj or ny and NOT in judo. but i happen to know yixuan and even though i dont particularly like her as a person, dont you think you guys are over reacting? 16 Jul 08, 18:34stranger: ppl have reasons for not liking u.. and pls go find out why. Don't defend urself cos ur attitude isnt as good either. and bloody hell ur attitude really sucks too.
16 Jul 08, 18:31stranger: and yeah yixuan, ppl dun give a damn about judo stuffs. Who's the one who curse ppl? AND u DARE say ur attitude is better than others? Shameless woman.. Go reflect upon urself before rebutting.
16 Jul 08, 10:59yixuan: and bloody hell, i did not BLAME u guys im CURSING u all. noe why? coz ur attitude seriously sucks to the core.
16 Jul 08, 10:58yixuan: if u guys really wanna noe who i m and how m i as a person, shoudnt u guys experience it urself. but sorry to say, im totally so not interested in noeing u guys.
16 Jul 08, 10:58yixuan: haiya, so unhappy with my blog why bother to read rite. anyways, say wadever u like. u guys r jus jealous. really wonder who's the sore losers. so wad if ny gurls won yet not humble.
15 Jul 08, 22:41passerby: no eh. NYJC has affiliations with stgabs, bps and aes, i know some of ur players are from there and not new to judo. dont anyhw say ur club is inexperienced and stuff.
15 Jul 08, 22:32CJ: what's with the personal attacks ? and so what if you won ? you're proud of the fact you defeated girls who trained only a year and a half ? when your team has people who trained longer ?
15 Jul 08, 22:29CJ: heh, and how would you know she sucks ? you are nobody to her or the CJ judo club. Hell, you haven't been to a single one of our trainings. what are you basing your accusations on ? seriously.
15 Jul 08, 20:50random: hahahahahaa. yixuan just suck
15 Jul 08, 20:15From NY: and you yourself shld know best how good your VP is, shldnt you?
15 Jul 08, 20:13From NY: fyi, i've nothing against CJ judo but i jus pity you guys for having such a VP tht suck BIG-TIME! NY judo is new and inexperienced, yet we still won. And, tht's smth t be proud of at least!
15 Jul 08, 17:55From CJ: ditto for you guys, CJ guys already won. no use saying NY COULD HAVE won or referee was biased. heh. at least we don make excuses.
14 Jul 08, 20:08From NY: Dont blame NY cos you lost. U should be thankful tht cjc judo didnt disband with u as a VP. So what if u aint happy, sore loser..
will update more tml=) really love to see wad's gonna happen next. lol.
Sunday, July 13, 2008 ; 12:52 AM
sometimes i really wonder. how u determine who's ur true fren. how u noe who will stand by u even during the hardest time. who will really listen to talk abt all those shyt u took in and tell u that he or she will always be thr for u. who will really take ur advice when they need some. i guess it's really hard to find true frens... well, at least i noe i haf some who will always be thr for me. and i mean forever. takes a long time to tell who really care for u truly. sometimes they do tease me, mock at me, reprimand me but i noe they do care for me. For some whom i tried to help, jus choose to take the easier way out and not take my advice. some jus walk away. is this how u shud treat someone who u really care? is this how u want it to be? for ur life to be miserable, to walk the path of life all by urself?hey, last thing im gonna say as a fren, go think abt wad u really wan in life alrite. if u wan ur life to be like this, so be it. im not gonna care anymore. jus dun come crying to me aft u regret what u haf done. to all my frens out there, u r the best i've ever met and im definitely gonna treasure u=) and i will standby u wadever happens. my trust in u will not be shaken by other people's words. =) love u guys <3
Friday, July 11, 2008 ; 3:09 PM
hmmm...wad shud i update about? my grades? lol. it will be such an embarrassment. =X anyways, the boys got bronze. we got nth. haiz. stupid NY. i curse u. lol SJI C BOYS GOT INTO FINALS! woohoo. sji finally got into finals again aft 18yrs. they fought really well la. beat st. gabs. im so gonna cheer them on in the finals. I got phobia for sushi now. so please do not ask me out to eat sushi or jap food. ahaha. went sushi buffet with the judokas aft competition. ate like mad. den stomach super bloated until cant move. was freaking scary. =X ate too much i guess. haha. hmmm..had my last training yst. was kinda sad. wad will my life be like without training? i will miss yeeling scolding me, mr koh teasing me,...haha. I GOT 96% attendance. muahaha. so zai! highest percentage. >.<
Monday, June 30, 2008 ; 8:49 AM
hmmm...i haven touch chem spa...and it's in 4hours time? ahaha. feel abit panicky now but dunno why i still blog. haha.
ANYWAYS, b-boys and ballerina is super nice! but it was oni abt 2hours long.den all of us except sush went to gelare. saw angeline. so surprised that she hugged me, elane and letty. =X haha. me and elane and joey shopped the whole orchard and oni bought stuff at far east. the rest of the places r like packed with ppl, cant really see anything nice and even if thr is, thr isnt the right size. i bought a pair of shoes, elane bought 1 too. but different color. same size some more so we can exchange next time=) my beloved bought us donuts and i tried the durian one for the first time. it's kinda nice. but i still prefer donut factory's, even though it's v sweet. haha.
YST, went out with elane. and joey joined us ard 6plus. we met at orchard n bought the tix for 7.30 show first den we went to bugis. but we shopped the whole street n bought nth. den we decided to go back to far east and i bought a dress. haha. den we met joey n went to aji-tei to haf dessert. den we went for the movie. we went in sat down, watched for 15mins and were asked to go out. coz our tix r for today not yst. den we were wth. although we were given a choice to choose any movie, we decided to watch today. but elane n i were v pissed off. haha. totally spoile d our mood la. we went coffee club to haf a drink and ate fondue. went hm ard ten plus aft the rain stop.
geez. i think i better study chem now. it's 9 alr.
The Girl <3
Name:YiXuan
School:CJC
Birthday:o4 April
Horoscope:Aries
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